OUCH....AGAIN!!!!

So, here I sit, or rather lie....once again in my bed with my foot up in the air, throbbing! I think it hurts more this time than last but of course Mom thinks I was in more pain last time....I am only letting her think that if it helps me get her on her way home quicker, but she is wrong. I really do ache more this time, but I guess that makes sense in some ways....after all, I just had it done two and a half months ago, and it was hurting badly before I went in again.

The process was not as smooth this time either. Well, as for the surgery it was more cut and dry being that no cadaver tissue had to be sewn in. The anesthesia process was not as good...I was not out by the time I hit the O.R. this trip like I was in Sept. This time, they put me under on the table there, and I thought I was going to suffocate in the process...my mouth got all numb and even though I supposedly had some oxygen on me (there was a mask, but my eyes were closed so I am guessing that is what it was) I couldn't breathe. I told her, and she said to relax I would be under soon....RIGHT! I was panicky before going under which was not reassuring. Then, after she had told me she would use the same treatment as the guy did last time, I was sick to my stomach all day and night yesterday. Massive headache too...which actually started before I went in, but got worse as the day wore on. So, I couldn't eat, was all drugged up with pain meds while I was still there, and was still in great pain! It sucked...TO SAY THE LEAST! It was not the same as last time...

Mom is losing it here too...tried to re-medicate me within 15 minutes of me just taking something for my headache...which she handed to me and watched me take! It was weird, after I had taken it, she says, you know, that tylenol would help your headache some...I said I had just taken it, and she gives me this "you're out of it look" and argues that it's ME who is wrong!
I was thinking, ok Kim, you better keep track or she will be drugging you up good!!
Then she tells me she will shower downstairs because the "new" shower head looks too confusing to her...it's one of those with a hand held option which I have ALWAYS had here, and she has used before. You don't HAVE to hold it, or adjust the spray type...just turn on the water and get in for God sake! She looked at me again like I had lost MY mind...I'm lying here in bed thinking is she for real???
You guys should see the looks she gives me when I am questioning her...with good reason I might add! I am seriously worried about her frame of mind...Oh, and for the record SHE DID HAVE A STROKE....it was not some "migraine" thing! She keeps telling me the stroke occurred a while ago, but Ed Gilmore referred to the recent loss of eyesight AS the stroke....not something from years ago! You can't tell her that though...I know the stroke might have come from years of migraines, but she really doesn't want to admit that was a stroke, plain and simple. As for being over-medicated herself, she may well have been, but she isn't any more lucid now than she was before by my measure. It worries me...if she wasn't in such denial about it all it would help but she seems to just want to argue the point instead....I give up I guess.....will just stop trying.
Ok, that's all for now from "sick bay"...I really DO need some more pain meds now!

Kimmie